day 14 of 31 days of cold plunging hello day 14 of 31 days of cold plunging hello day 14 of 31 days of cold plunging hello hello my dear in this video I'm going to hello my dear in this video I'm going to hello my dear in this video I'm going to share with you the ultimate morning share with you the ultimate morning share with you the ultimate morning practice that changed my life and practice that changed my life and practice that changed my life and unblocked my creativity and much much unblocked my creativity and much much unblocked my creativity and much much more I'm going to share with you the more I'm going to share with you the more I'm going to share with you the morning Pages something that has been morning Pages something that has been morning Pages something that has been around for decades actually developed by around for decades actually developed by around for decades actually developed by Julia Cameron who you'll hear me bang on Julia Cameron who you'll hear me bang on Julia Cameron who you'll hear me bang on about here and there because her program about here and there because her program about here and there because her program
the morning Pages let's get to it the the morning Pages let's get to it the morning pages are derived from the morning pages are derived from the morning pages are derived from the artist's way which is a 12we program artist's way which is a 12we program artist's way which is a 12we program which is a spiritual path to higher which is a spiritual path to higher which is a spiritual path to higher creativity this is a 12we program it's creativity this is a 12we program it's creativity this is a 12we program it's been around for over 25 years now and been around for over 25 years now and been around for over 25 years now and the backbone of this program well there the backbone of this program well there the backbone of this program well there are two actually the artist state is one are two actually the artist state is one are two actually the artist state is one of them and the other one is the morning of them and the other one is the morning of them and the other one is the morning Pages many people will never even finish Pages many people will never even finish Pages many people will never even finish this program I know this cuz I've talked
talks about God in a very broad way in a talks about God in a very broad way in a way that would probably not be upsetting way that would probably not be upsetting way that would probably not be upsetting to a lot of people but it would be to to a lot of people but it would be to to a lot of people but it would be to some people such as myself back in the some people such as myself back in the some people such as myself back in the day when I first came across a copy of day when I first came across a copy of day when I first came across a copy of this book um because any notion of God this book um because any notion of God this book um because any notion of God would piss me off back then and yet I would piss me off back then and yet I would piss me off back then and yet I still had changes come about from this still had changes come about from this still had changes come about from this book when I was still very resistant to book when I was still very resistant to book when I was still very resistant to doing it and to doing the pages I was a doing it and to doing the pages I was a doing it and to doing the pages I was a pretty big atheist actually throughout a
not I could couldn't stick to things I not I could couldn't stick to things I was so frazzled all the time you know my was so frazzled all the time you know my was so frazzled all the time you know my nervous system was all just disregulated nervous system was all just disregulated nervous system was all just disregulated and this is what happens you know a lot and this is what happens you know a lot and this is what happens you know a lot of us we have come from dysfunctional of us we have come from dysfunctional of us we have come from dysfunctional upbringings maybe trauma upbringings maybe trauma upbringings maybe trauma codependency we have gone through this codependency we have gone through this codependency we have gone through this trauma maybe that it's disregulated our trauma maybe that it's disregulated our trauma maybe that it's disregulated our nervous system so of course it's very nervous system so of course it's very nervous system so of course it's very hard for us to show up for routines to hard for us to show up for routines to hard for us to show up for routines to make decisions to trust our intuition
Journey if you're willing to take it if Journey if you're willing to take it if you're willing to put in the dedication you're willing to put in the dedication you're willing to put in the dedication and the effort nowadays I've realized I and the effort nowadays I've realized I and the effort nowadays I've realized I should not ever give my my copy I should not ever give my my copy I should not ever give my my copy I usually have an extra and I usually was usually have an extra and I usually was usually have an extra and I usually was giving them out for years to people I giving them out for years to people I giving them out for years to people I had this extra copy and whenever it felt had this extra copy and whenever it felt had this extra copy and whenever it felt right I'd give it and over the years right I'd give it and over the years right I'd give it and over the years I've decided I'm not going to gift this I've decided I'm not going to gift this I've decided I'm not going to gift this maybe anymore I think it needs to find maybe anymore I think it needs to find maybe anymore I think it needs to find its way to people in a different
the back pack with a couple pencils the back pack with a couple pencils right I mean if you're going on a right I mean if you're going on a right I mean if you're going on a monthlong hike you might need to take monthlong hike you might need to take monthlong hike you might need to take the whole notebook but hey Pages burn the whole notebook but hey Pages burn the whole notebook but hey Pages burn you can always burn them like I do at you can always burn them like I do at you can always burn them like I do at the end of your hike and you don't even the end of your hike and you don't even the end of your hike and you don't even have to walk back with them I go through have to walk back with them I go through have to walk back with them I go through about four of these a year so I think about four of these a year so I think about four of these a year so I think it's around if I calculated it it's it's it's around if I calculated it it's it's it's around if I calculated it it's it's three months or four months that I use three months or four months that I use three months or four months that I use up one of these okay so I just I just
script along the way to tell you so and script along the way to tell you so and if there's anything that I didn't cover if there's anything that I didn't cover if there's anything that I didn't cover or you want to know about just pop me a or you want to know about just pop me a or you want to know about just pop me a comment below and you know I'll get to comment below and you know I'll get to comment below and you know I'll get to that and I'll give you what I what I that and I'll give you what I what I that and I'll give you what I what I know about it or my personal experience know about it or my personal experience know about it or my personal experience right so this is it's different it's not right so this is it's different it's not right so this is it's different it's not journaling and what is the point of this journaling and what is the point of this journaling and what is the point of this we are bypassing the negative critic we are bypassing the negative critic we are bypassing the negative critic when we're writing and you'll see when we're writing and you'll see when we're writing and you'll see there's going to be a lot of like things
don't do that like the pages are Pages don't do that like the pages are Pages affirmations are affirmations let affirmations are affirmations let affirmations are affirmations let yourself be negative if you need to be yourself be negative if you need to be yourself be negative if you need to be if that's what's coming out let me tell if that's what's coming out let me tell if that's what's coming out let me tell you most of my pages I would say are you most of my pages I would say are you most of my pages I would say are actually quite negative and nobody would actually quite negative and nobody would actually quite negative and nobody would know it because once I'm done getting know it because once I'm done getting know it because once I'm done getting out all of that crunk or whatever is in out all of that crunk or whatever is in out all of that crunk or whatever is in my brain I'm able to show up better in my brain I'm able to show up better in my brain I'm able to show up better in the world and it means that I don't drag the world and it means that I don't drag the world and it means that I don't drag that around the rest of the day
we can get blocked from our creativity we can get blocked from our creativity depending on your personal depending on your personal depending on your personal history but in a nutshell there's this history but in a nutshell there's this history but in a nutshell there's this creative there's a negative critic creative there's a negative critic creative there's a negative critic everybody's got a negative critic your everybody's got a negative critic your everybody's got a negative critic your inner [ __ ] I don't know what you want inner [ __ ] I don't know what you want inner [ __ ] I don't know what you want to call it the to call it the to call it the perfectionist some of us are perfectionist some of us are perfectionist some of us are perfectionists I hate to identify with perfectionists I hate to identify with perfectionists I hate to identify with perfection being a perfectionist but I perfection being a perfectionist but I perfection being a perfectionist but I would say I have a habit of being
now who knows I don't I but I think it's now who knows I don't I but I think it's fantastic now it's fantastic now it's fantastic now it's promising more than promising it's a promising more than promising it's a promising more than promising it's a reality that we're seeing and that makes reality that we're seeing and that makes reality that we're seeing and that makes the college me just grin it makes me the college me just grin it makes me the college me just grin it makes me grin to think of all the times I was grin to think of all the times I was grin to think of all the times I was told like what are you going to do with told like what are you going to do with told like what are you going to do with that what are you going to do with that that what are you going to do with that that what are you going to do with that well I didn't know back in 2006 you know well I didn't know back in 2006 you know well I didn't know back in 2006 you know it was a different world now than it is it was a different world now than it is it was a different world now than it is now and so there's all these beliefs but
rattle off tons of things here rattle off tons of things here right this all boils down too often that right this all boils down too often that right this all boils down too often that we have hardwired program negative we have hardwired program negative we have hardwired program negative associations in relation to creativity associations in relation to creativity associations in relation to creativity from an early age something that got from an early age something that got from an early age something that got patterned in and so we will go through patterned in and so we will go through patterned in and so we will go through this inner child journey and what I love this inner child journey and what I love this inner child journey and what I love about this journey is that it does it in about this journey is that it does it in about this journey is that it does it in a way we're we're put in a very tender a way we're we're put in a very tender a way we're we're put in a very tender journey and we need to be doing journey and we need to be doing journey and we need to be doing self-care along the way let's face it
hard for me to separate exactly quantify hard for me to separate exactly quantify exactly what just the pages have done exactly what just the pages have done exactly what just the pages have done for me and the entire program because I for me and the entire program because I for me and the entire program because I have to look back into many many years have to look back into many many years have to look back into many many years ago when I first received the copy like ago when I first received the copy like ago when I first received the copy like I've told you about and did just a I've told you about and did just a I've told you about and did just a little bit of pages and then years later little bit of pages and then years later little bit of pages and then years later I did the program I've actually done the I did the program I've actually done the I did the program I've actually done the program twice and these days I'm also program twice and these days I'm also program twice and these days I'm also working on this which is a different working on this which is a different working on this which is a different different version a different kind of
this big fat brain dump onto the page this big fat brain dump onto the page you start to have a little bit less you start to have a little bit less you start to have a little bit less anxiety that's what happened to me I was anxiety that's what happened to me I was anxiety that's what happened to me I was getting a little bit less anxious less getting a little bit less anxious less getting a little bit less anxious less OCD which I'm going to dive into here OCD which I'm going to dive into here OCD which I'm going to dive into here and I started to feel much more centered and I started to feel much more centered and I started to feel much more centered I started to hear my own truth or listen I started to hear my own truth or listen I started to hear my own truth or listen to myself and what I was going through I to myself and what I was going through I to myself and what I was going through I was hearing different parts of myself was hearing different parts of myself was hearing different parts of myself well I still am till today as I'm doing well I still am till today as I'm doing well I still am till today as I'm doing them I'm hearing different parts of
far as to say that this definitely far as to say that this definitely helped me get out of depression and I'm helped me get out of depression and I'm helped me get out of depression and I'm going to put a pin in it but I could going to put a pin in it but I could going to put a pin in it but I could really go in depth about my journey out really go in depth about my journey out really go in depth about my journey out of depression because I was chronically of depression because I was chronically of depression because I was chronically depressed most of my life and I no depressed most of my life and I no depressed most of my life and I no longer am but this was definitely longer am but this was definitely longer am but this was definitely something part of my path to get out of something part of my path to get out of something part of my path to get out of that rut because one of the things for that rut because one of the things for that rut because one of the things for example when we're depressed is that we example when we're depressed is that we example when we're depressed is that we struggle to make decisions
journey so I started to know myself know journey so I started to know myself know thyself right know myself more because thyself right know myself more because thyself right know myself more because I'm spending this time with myself I'm I'm spending this time with myself I'm I'm spending this time with myself I'm spending my time right and after you spending my time right and after you spending my time right and after you know such and such amount of time that know such and such amount of time that know such and such amount of time that maybe I'd be complaining or listing maybe I'd be complaining or listing maybe I'd be complaining or listing something troubling right you do this something troubling right you do this something troubling right you do this enough times and you start to say like enough times and you start to say like enough times and you start to say like okay something needs to change okay something needs to change okay something needs to change because instead of going and complaining because instead of going and complaining because instead of going and complaining to your friend or
you live up to your fullest potential if you live up to your fullest potential if you keep identifying with it because it you keep identifying with it because it you keep identifying with it because it becomes this like a victim mentality becomes this like a victim mentality becomes this like a victim mentality like this Badge of I have anxiety and like this Badge of I have anxiety and like this Badge of I have anxiety and life was so bad and you Linger on this life was so bad and you Linger on this life was so bad and you Linger on this the low drama triangle give it a Google the low drama triangle give it a Google the low drama triangle give it a Google I'm not going to pop an image in here I'm not going to pop an image in here I'm not going to pop an image in here the low drama triangle okay you linger the low drama triangle okay you linger the low drama triangle okay you linger in this victim mode or the persecutor in this victim mode or the persecutor in this victim mode or the persecutor mode or The mode or The mode or The Rescuer and it ping pongs it can
light over here now so maybe we'll have light over here now so maybe we'll have better better better lighting we're progressing right I'm lighting we're progressing right I'm lighting we're progressing right I'm sharing sharing this so This the OCD sharing sharing this so This the OCD sharing sharing this so This the OCD though I had really I had some pretty though I had really I had some pretty though I had really I had some pretty detrimental OCD it really held me back detrimental OCD it really held me back detrimental OCD it really held me back and as I started doing the pages like and as I started doing the pages like and as I started doing the pages like I'm saying I'm becoming less of a I'm saying I'm becoming less of a I'm saying I'm becoming less of a perfectionist I'm starting to decide on perfectionist I'm starting to decide on perfectionist I'm starting to decide on things more I'm just like doing art things more I'm just like doing art things more I'm just like doing art whatever okay the negative critic I'm
the negative critic will cling to the negative critic will cling to anything that is important to you the anything that is important to you the anything that is important to you the OCD will cling to whatever is important OCD will cling to whatever is important OCD will cling to whatever is important to you and in this case it was to you and in this case it was to you and in this case it was meditation and my brain got locked on meditation and my brain got locked on meditation and my brain got locked on this sensor motor OCD where I was I this sensor motor OCD where I was I this sensor motor OCD where I was I couldn't stop focusing on my breath for couldn't stop focusing on my breath for couldn't stop focusing on my breath for about 3 days straight apart from when I about 3 days straight apart from when I about 3 days straight apart from when I finally did fall asleep after taking a finally did fall asleep after taking a finally did fall asleep after taking a number of sleeping pills which I would number of sleeping pills which I would number of sleeping pills which I would never take today but you know back then
same day that I thought that I saw same day that I thought that I saw Rainbow on my Rainbow on my Rainbow on my walk probably still have a photo or walk probably still have a photo or walk probably still have a photo or video of that rainbow because of course video of that rainbow because of course video of that rainbow because of course I took a little photo of I took a little photo of I took a little photo of it so as I started doing the pages again it so as I started doing the pages again it so as I started doing the pages again in the program what do you know the in the program what do you know the in the program what do you know the OCD started to dwindle more it was still OCD started to dwindle more it was still OCD started to dwindle more it was still really bad around that time as we know really bad around that time as we know really bad around that time as we know 2020 was a really difficult year we were 2020 was a really difficult year we were 2020 was a really difficult year we were having catalysts uprooted by the bucket
we're paying attention just try it out we're paying attention just try it out get yourself a paper and write on the get yourself a paper and write on the get yourself a paper and write on the paper something whatever comes out and you're focused on it you have to out and you're focused on it you have to out and you're focused on it you have to keep your focus on it and there's this keep your focus on it and there's this keep your focus on it and there's this delicious thing about being able to be delicious thing about being able to be delicious thing about being able to be in the present in the present in the present moment where you were just doing that moment where you were just doing that moment where you were just doing that thing even if it's parts of yourself thing even if it's parts of yourself thing even if it's parts of yourself bitching and moaning and complaining bitching and moaning and complaining bitching and moaning and complaining you're just doing that you're just doing that you're just doing that
it does something with the brain it does it does something with the brain it does something so yes so they are mindfulness something so yes so they are mindfulness something so yes so they are mindfulness in the moment but a different variety in the moment but a different variety in the moment but a different variety another thing that morning Pages have another thing that morning Pages have another thing that morning Pages have brought into my life for the better is brought into my life for the better is brought into my life for the better is that they are a codependency that they are a codependency that they are a codependency Buster Buster Buster okay I could really really break this okay I could really really break this okay I could really really break this down in a lot of down in a lot of down in a lot of ways but and and you know there's books ways but and and you know there's books ways but and and you know there's books devoted to codependency right if you're
me venting whatever comes out and not me venting whatever comes out and not relying on other people for relying on other people for relying on other people for that okay cuz let's face it I know this can sound really cold I it I know this can sound really cold I it I know this can sound really cold I went through times in my life where I went through times in my life where I went through times in my life where I felt like does anyone even care about me felt like does anyone even care about me felt like does anyone even care about me I could just die I could die in this I could just die I could die in this I could just die I could die in this apartment that I'm so lonely that I'm so apartment that I'm so lonely that I'm so apartment that I'm so lonely that I'm so lonely in and nobody would even know lonely in and nobody would even know lonely in and nobody would even know would my family even care or no cuz like would my family even care or no cuz like would my family even care or no cuz like everyone's so broken apart and all everyone's so broken apart and all everyone's so broken apart and all
itself that I could talk about at itself that I could talk about at another time but that has been a another time but that has been a another time but that has been a cultivation for me to the point where cultivation for me to the point where cultivation for me to the point where it's you know as long as it's like I've it's you know as long as it's like I've it's you know as long as it's like I've already done my things for the day I've already done my things for the day I've already done my things for the day I've got a I've got the capacity as long as got a I've got the capacity as long as got a I've got the capacity as long as I've shown up for me I my my cup is more I've shown up for me I my my cup is more I've shown up for me I my my cup is more full I can show up for others this is full I can show up for others this is full I can show up for others this is not selfish I mean we could joke about not selfish I mean we could joke about not selfish I mean we could joke about just be selfish yeah be a little selfish just be selfish yeah be a little selfish just be selfish yeah be a little selfish do your practices right
needed to and so every time that I kept needed to and so every time that I kept putting myself first with this I was putting myself first with this I was putting myself first with this I was actually able to commit to other things actually able to commit to other things actually able to commit to other things more I was building a sense of self more I was building a sense of self more I was building a sense of self trust self trust these build self trust trust self trust these build self trust trust self trust these build self trust which is what codependent people es which is what codependent people es which is what codependent people es especially people with codependent especially people with codependent especially people with codependent patterns I want to say I hate to label patterns I want to say I hate to label patterns I want to say I hate to label people because I want you to know you people because I want you to know you people because I want you to know you can get out of this label you're more can get out of this label you're more can get out of this label you're more than this
Comes A Time In healing where you can't Comes A Time In healing where you can't lie to lie to lie to yourself yourself yourself much you you see through your own much you you see through your own much you you see through your own BS and yeah you know so they're checkin BS and yeah you know so they're checkin BS and yeah you know so they're checkin they're checkin of feelings emotions all they're checkin of feelings emotions all they're checkin of feelings emotions all of it I stopped complaining so much and of it I stopped complaining so much and of it I stopped complaining so much and I stopped complaining to others so much I stopped complaining to others so much I stopped complaining to others so much and I stopped and I stopped and I stopped Outsourcing to others I used to be a Outsourcing to others I used to be a Outsourcing to others I used to be a chronic advice
so so humiliating humiliating to because we are humiliating to because we are humiliating to because we are invalidating our own experience when we invalidating our own experience when we invalidating our own experience when we do this chronically and let me tell you do this chronically and let me tell you do this chronically and let me tell you it could say a lot about it could say a lot about it could say a lot about advice but often times people go around advice but often times people go around advice but often times people go around for advice because they just want a for advice because they just want a for advice because they just want a validation of what they actually will validation of what they actually will validation of what they actually will not validate inside validate inside validate inside themselves and this helped me take themselves and this helped me take
capacity unlike people people just we capacity unlike people people just we don't usually have that capacity I mean don't usually have that capacity I mean don't usually have that capacity I mean you have to be like a monk or or a you have to be like a monk or or a you have to be like a monk or or a priest or Priestess or something you priest or Priestess or something you priest or Priestess or something you have to be a spacehero myself spacehero myself spacehero myself I wouldn't be able to hold space for I wouldn't be able to hold space for I wouldn't be able to hold space for them this is the capacity I pr is that I them this is the capacity I pr is that I them this is the capacity I pr is that I don't have I'm I'm just I'm suspending don't have I'm I'm just I'm suspending don't have I'm I'm just I'm suspending judgments we're human okay it's not an judgments we're human okay it's not an judgments we're human okay it's not an excuse for for causing suffering in the excuse for for causing suffering in the excuse for for causing suffering in the
connected with my higher self or with connected with my higher self or with Source this helped me develop this and Source this helped me develop this and Source this helped me develop this and see my connection throughout the day see my connection throughout the day see my connection throughout the day throughout the throughout the throughout the moments and I started to enjoy just moments and I started to enjoy just moments and I started to enjoy just being alone with myself and doing other being alone with myself and doing other being alone with myself and doing other things Solitude is amazing it's not things Solitude is amazing it's not things Solitude is amazing it's not loneliness is it's um it can be really loneliness is it's um it can be really loneliness is it's um it can be really crippling crippling crippling I know the feeling and I rarely ever go I know the feeling and I rarely ever go I know the feeling and I rarely ever go through loneliness anymore and if I do
things I started to think maybe I want things I started to think maybe I want to try again and get treated for ADHD I don't want to go on a huge ADHD I don't want to go on a huge ADHD I don't want to go on a huge tangent about this I'll make another tangent about this I'll make another tangent about this I'll make another video on it because it's really video on it because it's really video on it because it's really important but I had really really bad important but I had really really bad important but I had really really bad symptoms of ADHD throughout my life and symptoms of ADHD throughout my life and symptoms of ADHD throughout my life and I know it's can be healed and I know I know it's can be healed and I know I know it's can be healed and I know that we can heal it I believe we can that we can heal it I believe we can that we can heal it I believe we can heal it without taking drugs but at the heal it without taking drugs but at the heal it without taking drugs but at the time I was not opposed to taking time I was not opposed to taking time I was not opposed to taking
good and so they put me on that and it good and so they put me on that and it was very effective it was very effective I over the effective I over the effective I over the years I will share my ADHD journey in a years I will share my ADHD journey in a years I will share my ADHD journey in a different video and it might be very different video and it might be very different video and it might be very long like this long like this long like this one cuz it's dense right this is a one cuz it's dense right this is a one cuz it's dense right this is a journey but I gravitated away from from journey but I gravitated away from from journey but I gravitated away from from using medication I didn't want to use it using medication I didn't want to use it using medication I didn't want to use it anymore for particular reasons and one anymore for particular reasons and one anymore for particular reasons and one of them of them of them
and then part of me is like [ __ ] and then part of me is like [ __ ] you I'm sick of feeling dependent on you I'm sick of feeling dependent on you I'm sick of feeling dependent on this I'm sick of feeling dependent on it this I'm sick of feeling dependent on it this I'm sick of feeling dependent on it and I know that this is really and I know that this is really and I know that this is really conflicting for people to hear and I'm conflicting for people to hear and I'm conflicting for people to hear and I'm not telling you dump your meds if you not telling you dump your meds if you not telling you dump your meds if you take them or any of this okay I'm take them or any of this okay I'm take them or any of this okay I'm sharing my path my story but I'm also on sharing my path my story but I'm also on sharing my path my story but I'm also on to say that I do also believe that that to say that I do also believe that that to say that I do also believe that that form of Western medicine was actually form of Western medicine was actually form of Western medicine was actually crucial to my
of something or something is bothering of something or something is bothering us right or we re we're putting out our us right or we re we're putting out our us right or we re we're putting out our priorities again for the day and it's priorities again for the day and it's priorities again for the day and it's you we're realizing like oh no I've got you we're realizing like oh no I've got you we're realizing like oh no I've got to push a before c and C's got to come to push a before c and C's got to come to push a before c and C's got to come after a you know we're showing up in so after a you know we're showing up in so after a you know we're showing up in so many ways and with this like reflection many ways and with this like reflection many ways and with this like reflection right and that means that we are inre we right and that means that we are inre we right and that means that we are inre we are increasing our self-awareness which are increasing our self-awareness which are increasing our self-awareness which is very important for is very important for is very important for ADHD for everyone really it also I want
ego the ego's judgments Etc I want to ego the ego's judgments Etc I want to emphasize again how the morning Pages emphasize again how the morning Pages emphasize again how the morning Pages help me build routines I mentioned help me build routines I mentioned help me build routines I mentioned earlier about how it became a commitment earlier about how it became a commitment earlier about how it became a commitment to myself and help me they have helped to myself and help me they have helped to myself and help me they have helped me build self trust right but in terms me build self trust right but in terms me build self trust right but in terms of of of ADHD many of us who have this understand ADHD many of us who have this understand ADHD many of us who have this understand or have read that you need routines in or have read that you need routines in or have read that you need routines in your life you need routines in your life your life you need routines in your life your life you need routines in your life and if you're where I am where I was
online and check how many people have online and check how many people have what did they say what did they say what did they say what did they say what did they say what did they say outside validation outside validation outside validation outside validation outside validation outside validation Outsourcing your belief Outsourcing your belief Outsourcing your belief system whenever we do that so system whenever we do that so system whenever we do that so much we take away from our own much we take away from our own much we take away from our own intuition that blocks the intuition it's intuition that blocks the intuition it's intuition that blocks the intuition it's it can be scary to follow our intuition it can be scary to follow our intuition it can be scary to follow our intuition especially if we've lived a lifetime especially if we've lived a lifetime especially if we've lived a lifetime where we're not following where we're not following where we're not following it and so it's a risk we start to take
to my higher self started to to my higher self started to develop let's dive into some of the develop let's dive into some of the develop let's dive into some of the resistances that you may have to doing resistances that you may have to doing resistances that you may have to doing the morning the morning the morning Pages let's go let's start off with Pages let's go let's start off with Pages let's go let's start off with something like maybe it seems really something like maybe it seems really something like maybe it seems really silly or stupid or very silly or stupid or very silly or stupid or very basic why would that be effective basic why would that be effective basic why would that be effective something so basic let me tell you a something so basic let me tell you a something so basic let me tell you a little something about rituals right cuz little something about rituals right cuz little something about rituals right cuz this I consider a ritual it's something
it running into that lover that past it running into that lover that past lover that I want to cut the cord with lover that I want to cut the cord with lover that I want to cut the cord with and then I'm going to stand up after I'm and then I'm going to stand up after I'm and then I'm going to stand up after I'm done and I see those cords and I stand done and I see those cords and I stand done and I see those cords and I stand up and I chop it and you know what that up and I chop it and you know what that up and I chop it and you know what that little ritual was actually very scary little ritual was actually very scary little ritual was actually very scary for me to do scary especially to do with for me to do scary especially to do with for me to do scary especially to do with certain certain certain lovers and when you're reading a ritual lovers and when you're reading a ritual lovers and when you're reading a ritual on paper it can seem very basic so basic on paper it can seem very basic so basic on paper it can seem very basic so basic that you're like that's not going to
earlier find a way to get up earlier you earlier find a way to get up earlier you know you have to find the thing that know you have to find the thing that know you have to find the thing that works for you for example I remember works for you for example I remember works for you for example I remember reading years ago that um Jr R toian he reading years ago that um Jr R toian he reading years ago that um Jr R toian he would stay up late really late after would stay up late really late after would stay up late really late after grading all of these papers you know grading all of these papers you know grading all of these papers you know like and then it was his time to work on like and then it was his time to work on like and then it was his time to work on his writing so where there's a will his writing so where there's a will his writing so where there's a will there's a way and yeah it means that there's a way and yeah it means that there's a way and yeah it means that we're doing extra work sometimes but if we're doing extra work sometimes but if we're doing extra work sometimes but if you're a creative person and you're not
choice though and I had to get up early choice though and I had to get up early and I still to get up earlier to do and I still to get up earlier to do and I still to get up earlier to do pages I would do it because of all the pages I would do it because of all the pages I would do it because of all the things that I've shared with you it's things that I've shared with you it's things that I've shared with you it's worth it it's proven it's worth it to me worth it it's proven it's worth it to me worth it it's proven it's worth it to me and now I'm at the point where it's like and now I'm at the point where it's like and now I'm at the point where it's like oh yeah I've been doing these for like oh yeah I've been doing these for like oh yeah I've been doing these for like four years and six four years and six four years and six months and months and months and I'm just it's natural for me to just do I'm just it's natural for me to just do I'm just it's natural for me to just do them in the
a little pointer put them right beside a little pointer put them right beside your bed that way when you wake up in your bed that way when you wake up in your bed that way when you wake up in the morning you can't really ignore them the morning you can't really ignore them the morning you can't really ignore them put it right there and then you can do put it right there and then you can do put it right there and then you can do it right after that let's face it it right after that let's face it it right after that let's face it morning piss that everyone takes the morning piss that everyone takes the morning piss that everyone takes the other thing about doing these the other thing about doing these the other thing about doing these the resistance that can come in also is that resistance that can come in also is that resistance that can come in also is that maybe you started off strong or whatever maybe you started off strong or whatever maybe you started off strong or whatever and then who knows down the line like and then who knows down the line like and then who knows down the line like all new habits you're going to have a
the the defeats the failures all the the defeats the failures all that it's not actually important that's that it's not actually important that's that it's not actually important that's not what's going to make you what's not what's going to make you what's not what's going to make you what's going to make going to make going to make you is how many times that you get back you is how many times that you get back you is how many times that you get back up to the plate that's what matters just up to the plate that's what matters just up to the plate that's what matters just get back up to the plate just get back get back up to the plate just get back get back up to the plate just get back on the on the on the horse and gradually what happens when we horse and gradually what happens when we horse and gradually what happens when we just keep getting back onto something is just keep getting back onto something is just keep getting back onto something is like it starts to Snowball the routine
with people and of course I was doing my with people and of course I was doing my morning pages but it was not the same as morning pages but it was not the same as morning pages but it was not the same as me being in solitude doing them you got me being in solitude doing them you got me being in solitude doing them you got to be alone to do them I want to to be alone to do them I want to to be alone to do them I want to say but you try it out see what you say but you try it out see what you say but you try it out see what you think you think you think you know but so this crawling out of the bed know but so this crawling out of the bed know but so this crawling out of the bed with you know in your lovers in the bed with you know in your lovers in the bed with you know in your lovers in the bed and you don't want to leave them but and you don't want to leave them but and you don't want to leave them but it's a commitment to it's a commitment to it's a commitment to yourself and like I said so I had this
pages it's really helped me repattern pages it's really helped me repattern this codependency that I had that was this codependency that I had that was this codependency that I had that was dictating my life I was dictating my life I was dictating my life I was conditioned with these destructive conditioned with these destructive conditioned with these destructive patterns that conditioned that that were patterns that conditioned that that were patterns that conditioned that that were detriment to my life and perhaps you're detriment to my life and perhaps you're detriment to my life and perhaps you're trying to break that crap too it's trying to break that crap too it's trying to break that crap too it's possible another resistance let's see possible another resistance let's see possible another resistance let's see maybe you're going on a hike like I said maybe you're going on a hike like I said maybe you're going on a hike like I said at the at the at the beginning you don't want it to weigh
of our painting of everything of all of of our painting of everything of all of the Little Steps along the way right we the Little Steps along the way right we the Little Steps along the way right we remember the phrase Rome wasn't built in remember the phrase Rome wasn't built in remember the phrase Rome wasn't built in a day it wasn't built in a day our we we a day it wasn't built in a day our we we a day it wasn't built in a day our we we tend to especially when we're when we're tend to especially when we're when we're tend to especially when we're when we're blocked creatives we tend to look at the blocked creatives we tend to look at the blocked creatives we tend to look at the comparisons of the with the Masters as comparisons of the with the Masters as comparisons of the with the Masters as Julia says in the book we tend to look Julia says in the book we tend to look Julia says in the book we tend to look at especially with visual Arts the at especially with visual Arts the at especially with visual Arts the byproduct of the byproduct of the byproduct of the painting the one that's the byproduct
look at that there was butterfly in look at that there was butterfly in there every time I'm at a new point of there every time I'm at a new point of there every time I'm at a new point of my journey where I'm really my journey where I'm really my journey where I'm really changing I get a butterfly somewhere on changing I get a butterfly somewhere on changing I get a butterfly somewhere on the ground and I'm getting a lot of them the ground and I'm getting a lot of them the ground and I'm getting a lot of them these days this one is still these days this one is still these days this one is still alive hey alive hey alive hey buddy I'm going to put him down here on buddy I'm going to put him down here on buddy I'm going to put him down here on this rock fly fly fly fly he's too wet oh no well maybe he'll make it we'll wet oh no well maybe he'll make it we'll wet oh no well maybe he'll make it we'll see well thank you for joining like this
element I need to mention that if you element I need to mention that if you are going to do the entire program do are going to do the entire program do are going to do the entire program do not burn your not burn your not burn your pages because you will need them for pages because you will need them for pages because you will need them for week seven not to uh spoiler alert you week seven not to uh spoiler alert you week seven not to uh spoiler alert you but don't throw them away this is um but don't throw them away this is um but don't throw them away this is um we'll say highlevel artist way is burn we'll say highlevel artist way is burn we'll say highlevel artist way is burn your pages PS speak speaking of your pages PS speak speaking of your pages PS speak speaking of synchronicities I filmed this video on synchronicities I filmed this video on synchronicities I filmed this video on the 14th right and 2 days later I was the 14th right and 2 days later I was the 14th right and 2 days later I was fulfilling a role of being a sanctuary